YouTube gamer xJawz, best known for his Call of Duty gameplay videos, has released a video offering an emotional remembrance of FPSRussia manager Keith Ratliff, who was shot and killed last week in a suspected homicide.

xJawz (real name Sam Betesh) is normally a pretty upbeat guy, and displays an enthusiastic personality in his Call of Duty videos and other online appearances (such as his ill-fated Dance Showdown performance). However, in his most recent video, he is audibly fighting back tears as he recounts his relationship with Ratliff, who he met on the set of The Controller. “I definitely spent more time with him than I spent with anyone else on set,” explained xJawz in the video, “I can say now I’m really thankful I did spend that time with him because he was such a great guy…He had a smile on wider than anyone else on set.”

The 18 year-old gamer, whose channel has more than 916 thousand subscribers and more than 192 million views, explained the kindness Ratliff showed him during the filming of The Controller:

I felt like someone like him nine times out of ten would not take two seconds to acknowledge me or to talk to some kid on set who didn’t know a thing about guns, but he didn’t care that I didn’t know anything about guns. He didn’t care that I was different, that I was young, that I was the youngest person on set and I had never shot a gun before going down there. I was pretty out of place and at a time and in a place where I felt pretty out of place he made me feel not so out of place.

xJawz video is a sobering reminder of how many people are affected by a single tragedy in such an interconnected community. We at Tubefilter offer our condolences to Ratliff’s friends and family.